Every time I would fall off the diet wagon, it was the end of the world. I hated myself, thought I was weak and convinced myself I could never live at having a healthy weight. Then the punishment would begin with restricting food or extra workouts to make up for my failures. And, where did that get me?....right back to falling off the wagon again. After the Totell program, I've actually learned to love my wagon. When I lose control and binge eat, my new goal is to study it, understand it and learn from it. Instead of punishing myself, I respect that there was an important reason for my behavior. Now I embrace these failures rather than run from them to the next diet. They used to hold me hostage and now they are the key to my success.
Audrey E.
Phoenix, Arizona

I feel like I have been getting ready to start what I call my “real life” forever. I know what I want it to look like, how I will feel, and all the things I will do, like ballroom dancing. There's a class every Wednesday and Friday night, but I convinced myself I couldn't go until I lost some weight. That was six years ago and still no dancing. When my Totell coach had me write down everything that makes up my real life, what she called my life of wellness, I put dancing on the list. We discussed and documented how I envisioned my daily routines, activities, feelings, sleep patterns, physical appearance and social priorities. And, we didn't just talk about all of this. She had me choose one aspect of my life of wellness every week and implement it. It was amazing. I was waiting on my weight to start living well. Now, living well is helping me manage my weight and I love my dance class!
Brynn F. Portland, Oregon

I never understood that so many of the foods I ate actually changed my hormones and made me want even more! It was always just my lack of willpower and I would blame myself for failing over and over again. So much of why we eat has to do with our brain chemistry and when you understand how and why you are eating, you have the secret weapon to make real changes.
Samantha C. Miami, Florida

I can count 12 books I've purchased over the last 5 years that promised to end my emotional eating forever. They all had something to offer, but I bet I didn't finish even one of them. Not until I worked with my Totell coach did I see this problem through. She educated me, supported me and held my feet to the fire during times I wanted to run. Having someone who understood my struggle and held me accountable made all the difference in the world.
Jacqueline B. Salt Lake City, Utah

I went grocery shopping with my husband on Saturday night. While we were in the store we got into an argument (of course I can't remember what it was about). I was so mad at my husband that I purchased one of the bakery's cheese cakes and as soon as we got in the car I grabbed a plastic knife (leftover from a fast-food meal) and started eating the cake. After consulting with my Totell Coach I realized that this was much more than emotional eating. I was actually trying to punish my husband by eating something fattening. Through a lot of thought and journaling I realized that I have used food to not only punish him and gain unattractive weight but to punish myself when I was mad. I hurt myself in an attempt to hurt others. No more, it is crazy. I turn on myself in defense. I stop now when those urges come. I have to make myself seclude myself and sit there until I figure out who I am mad at and why I want to hurt myself by overeating to get back at them. It has been a pivotal realization for me.
Leda F. Seattle, Washington

This may sound easy for some but for me I have struggled whenever I go to a restaurant. My struggle begins while driving to the restaurant, I start thinking about the dessert, craving the sweetness and knowing that once I start I won't want to stop. At times, my emotional eating was so bad that, not only would I be excited for the dessert I would eat at the restaurant, I would be excited for the dessert I would take home for my family knowing full well I would eat it in the car long before I got home. Well I had a break through, I figured out that if I decided before not to have anything with sugar, which sets off my addictive cravings, I could enjoy the whole meal. What I did was just envisioned the restaurant was out, there was no sugar anywhere, gone, nothing. There was no way I could get it no matter how much I wanted it. I pictured living where it isn't accessible. What would I do? Just like a child I would get over it, I would eventually start thinking about something else. Guess what? It worked. For the first time I actually enjoyed what I was eating instead of thinking about what I was going to be eating…the dessert. I realized that accessibility and overabundance makes me obsessive. It's a mind trick for now but as I have learned from Totell the mind can be reconditioned to understand and work in new and healthier ways. Yea!
- Diane L. New York City, New York

"Totell is changing my life. What a relief to finally be in control of what I eat.
I could not have made this terrific progress without my Totell tools. The 'Emotional Ammo' gives me a tangible weapon that I turn to instead of turning to food.”
- Jessica K. San Diego, California
“I have been doing the Totell program for 5 weeks and so far I have lost 7lbs without exercising! The amazing part is that it has been effortless, painless and fun! I have gained much clarity with my relationship to food.”
- Kendra P. New York City, New York
“My wife and I studied the program together. We love how convenient the online videos are and the Emotional Ammo Tool is perfect for those who are on-the-go!"
- Ken & Jamie C. Payson, Arizona
"I have tried three diets this year and I did loose a little weight but it came right back with in a month!
I could never point out why until Totell helped me find the source of the problem. Thank you so much for all you do!"
-Sophie D. Seattle, Washington
" I am a busy mom and I work so I love that the Totell program is online! Being able to log in at work or at home has been extremely convenient!"
-Maria E. Lincoln, West Virginia
